Three Things I Need To Start Doing

So I’m having a bit of a hard time keeping up with this fitness challenge.  I did the pushups and shoulder exercises on Monday, but I didn’t do yoga on Tuesday nor did I do yesterday’s exercises.

Not good.

But I’m trying not to be too hard on myself because:

  1. I have an 11 week old.  As amazing of a sleeper as she is, she’s only 11 weeks old and I’m still getting up in the night with her at least once.  Taking care of a baby (and a toddler) is also pretty time consuming and when I do have a moment to myself I’d honestly rather lay on the couch watching bad tv than do pushups.
  2. I just had a baby 11 weeks ago.  The last few weeks of pregnancy and the first few weeks I got very little sleep.  I feel like I have some major sleep catch up to do.  Plus, even though my postpartum recovery has been amazing, pretty sure my body is still recovering.

I know, excuses excuses.

The original plan was to do the exercises while they nap.  When I’m not tired from being up in the night I can totally do it during Isabel’s morning nap.  If that doesn’t work out, and the stars align and Nathan and Isabel nap at the same time, I can do it in the afternoon.

But then there’s days like today.  Nathan is home with me because he’s sick so I spent the morning with him.  Then he went for a nap just as Isabel was waking up.  I just put Isabel down for another nap and I can hear Nathan waking up now.

And then I think, I can just do it when they are awake.  But honestly, I’d rather play with my babies.

I guess the thing is if I really want to bring fitness back into my life, I need to do to things:

  1. I need to prioritize it.  I have the time.  I do.  I mean, it only takes 15 or 20 minutes – I can for sure find that somewhere in my day.
  2. I need to take it one day at a time.  If I miss a day, it’s ok.  One day missed does not have to mean the end of the whole thing – which is kind of how my mind works.  I need to be flexible and I need to be forgiving.
  3. I need to just start.  When I’m tired just the thought of doing exercises is exhausting.  But if I just start, it’s easy to go on.  If I tell myself: just do one pushup, there’s a good chance I’ll do more.

So today’s exercise is elliptical, which is too bad because that’s one that I really can’t do with the babies around today.  So instead, in the spirit of flexibility, I’m going to do some yoga – seeing as I skipped Tuesday.

I’m sure I can find a mom and toddler yoga routine on youtube…that should be interesting.

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Cultivating Some New Habits

Oh hi there.  It’s been a while, I know.  Seven months in fact.  It’s been so long that I don’t even know how to begin this post.  So I will begin with why I am writing again.

I’m ready to cultivate some new habits.

And that’s really why I haven’t written here in so long.  I’ve been a bit busy to cultivate anything but babies.

Yes, babies, as in plural.

I now have two babies.  Nathan just turned two in February, so technically he’s not really a baby anymore.  He’s full blown toddler which comes with a whole lot of toddler sized “fun”.  Seriously though, he’s super cool right now.  Learning new words every day, really watching us to see what we’re doing and how we’re doing it, and he continues to be very brave and physical.  He’s also a bit of a lunatic, but aren’t all toddlers?

My second, Isabel, is just the sweetest baby girl.  She’s 10 weeks old and her smiles make my heart melt.  I had a tough pregnancy and a crazy intense home birth (maybe I’ll tell that story here one day) – pretty much everything was different the second time around. And she is so different from how Nathan was as a newborn.  He was high needs and could not be put down, including to sleep.  She is super chill and sleeps long stretches on her own.  It’s aaaaamazing.

So yeah, I’m 10 weeks post partum and I’ve got a few ideas for habits that I want to cultivate.   I’m finding that being a mom to two little ones makes me a bit obsessed with being a mom.  Which is not a bad thing really, but I don’t want to lose myself in motherhood.  I want to continue to do the things that make me feel like me.  And since Isabel actually naps and I have time in the day I want to make sure I’m making the most of that time –  meaning, not binge watching bad tv or scrolling through social media.

So I’m going to start with getting back into my physical body.

I’ve asked my husband, Danny, to put together a workout plan for me.  I asked him to keep it to 30 minutes a day, that I can do it at home, and to make sure it’s post partum appropriate (no crunches, not too intense – I honestly haven’t worked out in about a year, so I need to take it slow!).  This is what he came up with:

MONDAY
PUSHUPS
SHOULDER FLIES (with weights)
SHOULDER RAISES (with weights)

TUESDAY
YOGA

WEDNESDAY
SQUATS BANDS/ WEIGHTS
LUNGES BANDS/ WEIGHTS
AB THINGIE

THURSDAY
ELLIPTICAL

FRIDAY
BENT OVER ROW (with weights)
DEADLIFT (with weights)

I totally meant to start today but I didn’t.  And I have excuses!  But I can always have excuses, especially with two littles at home.  So if I want to do this, I need to prioritize it.  And I need to do it at the same time every day – but not at the end of the day which is what I had planned to do today.  I’m just too tired once the kids are in bed and our evenings are often a bit hectic.

Take tonight for example:  an entire beer smashed on our kitchen floor which woke the baby up which upset Nathan.  The dinner I made turned out disgusting (though the face Nathan made was pretty great) so we ate peas and pizza instead.  Both kids went to bed fairly easily but after cleaning the kitchen that last Corona in the fridge was just too tempting.  And we all know Coronas and pushups just don’t mix.

So today starts with just setting my intention.  Putting it out there that I will commit to this plan for 3 weeks.  After three weeks I’ll reassess and see where I’m at.

I started this website 3? 4? years ago as an accountability tool and that’s what I’m going to use it as once again.  Each day I will post here how many reps I did, any obstacles I overcame to get the workout in, and just sort of a progress report.

So tomorrow I will begin this journey with YOGA!

Super pumped.

Getting Back to Yoga

It’s been seven weeks since I gave birth to my precious little boy.

I was shocked how quickly my stomach went down after giving birth.  It was so strange.  I thought I’d feel empty inside (afterall there was crazy kicker in there for quite some time), but I didn’t at all.

I also didn’t feel like myself.

I’m actually only starting to feel like myself.

My recovery has been good, I guess.  I mean, I don’t really have anything to compare it to.  I did think I’d be able to more sooner, but I’ve been careful not to overdo it.

By the fourth week I was ready to get back to my yoga practice.  I was really missing it and feeling a bit (well, a lot) disconnected from myself so I gave it a go.

It felt strange.  Coming back to something that I know and trust with a body that I no longer knew or trusted.

It was too early.  I was too tired.  And far too vulnerable.

The biggest thing was that I couldn’t feel my core.  It’s much better now, but how strange to not be able to connect to this centre.  My legs were shaky and I couldn’t shake the new ache in my neck and shoulders. I second guessed my ability to do basic poses that were part of my regular practice.

It felt all wrong and awkward and to be honest it upset me a bit.

I’m now ready to give it another go.  I plan to tonight.  Only this time I’ll approach my mat with extra patience and compassion.  Because even though I feel better, I know my body is not quite where it was a year ago.